
Wild Muse Rising
seeding hope carrier
In search for a melody that is sweeter
In longing for your deeper shelter
I turn over everything on my way
in my endeavour to know me
to feel safer, braver
I wait impatiently at this doorway
Of dying, of chaos, confusion
In the middle of pandemonium
In the midst of troubled world
It is as if you abandoned me
Left me lost , left me barren
Wailing through a storm
In this painstaking search
I see
I ought to take the stock of myself
In sudden pausing something makes its way
slip through unnoticed
Gently placing its finger to my lips
To quieten chattering head
In clear emptiness
I forget what I was thinking
In this spacious nothingness
Where all turns into warp
You appear
Not as the vision of my mind
But inner voice, intuitive sense
Inner knowing
A clearing space
An opening
Of flux and transience
Unfolding
An uttering of sacred within
Your voice say
Listen now please
I am your inner
Goddess that knows you well
Hear this and let me be heard
Retreat and trust now
Drop that fear
Like an old heavy cloak
As a carrier of seeds
travelling around globe
And healing your own wounds
You need time
And safety of this nest space
To pause, to gather your strength
Have a space to be still
To heal your own injured wings
Before running back into
New venture
For your next leap of faith
And like stream
Instinctively recognize
Your mother river
By the sound of her flow
Your light trickle
Vibrates far in the ocean
Of water world
And it's elementals
Beckoning you home
And then you vanish
As if figment of my imagination
A silence
winding out into nothing
spiralling snake
Like a whirling dervish
Like vortex in the heart centre
And I sense
Not in my control
The strange taste of unknown in my mouth
A shooting pain down my spine
The muddy waters of the day
A homelessness of human form
So much burden and anquish
Is not meant to be carried alone
But shared together
We choose to feel the part of one
Conscious flame
Mere Stillness
In a moment
Allowing
Letting in
Facing the whole world
As fetus cocooned in
the womb of a mother
Treasure finding its seeker
You are the alchemy
Of wild healing
A Seeding Hope Carrier.
2019